I have a lot going on. No one’s heard from me because I do not have the capacity to accommodate or entertain.
I had written a Part 2 to the previous post, however, I need to do a lot of research so I have all of my facts right, since it is a medical topic. I simply have not been in the mood.
My own surgery recovery hasn’t been easy, I didn’t bounce back. I honestly feel and look worse. I’m working on it, but apparently it “takes time.” Very annoying.
My FIL has had a terrible time since losing his wife and his own health has rapidly been on the decline. We thought he may have dementia, but after an MRI, it revealed to be much worse. He has a brain tumor. The same disease that tormented and killed my mother. He doesn’t have very long. Losing another parent so soon after the other….
In case you were not aware, there is a lot of paperwork involved in dying. Lots of going to various buildings that are completely out of the way. We need more doctors and more notaries.
With all of that going on, there should be no question as why I haven’t been writing any beauty reviews! I am purchasing and wearing makeup. I’d love to share what I got from various indie brands. But having to take photos, write about it, edit everything just isn’t within my energy levels.
Everyone gets surprised by this, so I better explain it here. In January of this year, I deactivated my Instagram accounts. It simply was no longer serving me since I was shadowbanned. And what is the point of posting if it doesn’t even get shown to people who follow me? I couldn’t even comment on my own posts on a different account. I meant to deactivate it for two weeks, but then I realized that I don’t miss it.
I’ve found that my images from this blog have been “stolen” and depending on my mood, if this person intends to profit off my image, or if the person deliberately erased or cropped out my watermark, I will file an DMCA takedown. I don’t have the patience for people fucking around. I have also seen my blog images used on TikToks. One was delightful and she was kind. She has permission to use my images any time. The other used my image to make fun of a trend and I wasn’t pleased that MY image was used as the example. It would have been better if she used the brand’s official photos and not the photos of from an unknown blogger. I can’t stop her, it’s already been used and seen. But I can feel sour about it!
I am also working on a new project. Therapy has me a lot more aware of the toxic family systems I have endured. Narcissism, Flying Monkeys and me being the family scapegoat on both sides. Abused on one side, an afterthought in the other. Writing about it helps organize my thoughts and it could help others going through a similar situation. I am considering starting a new blog, a Substack or hell, even writing a book on toxic family systems. I think I have a lot to offer on the topic.
I do have positive things going on as well. I tend to make videos on what I’ve been doing on TikTok. This is a “what’s gone wrong” post and I am keeping it on this fun ‘lil theme.
